Saying Hello to Myself

 This is all spur of the moment and mostly made out of motivation from a friend. Even if I am the only one who will ever see these I think it is important that I say something.

I am a sinner. I know some of my sins very well, we're practically old friends with how often they come around. Some of my sins I don't know almost at all, those are the ones God really has to let me know about. 

 I am lonely. Even surrounded by people I feel like the only one standing in the room, with no one willingly turning my way to speak with me. Holding onto the idea of no one wanting to curl up with me just because.

I am lost. I don't know what I am doing with myself or future besides getting by with a part time job. Discouraging myself with seeing how other people seem to be stepping up for their goals, while I remain stagnant.

And You know, I want to be valued and sought after, but only certain people, the people who do seek me out I don't need. . .

These are all truths of my thoughts but these are not true of my life.

Yes, I am a sinner. But God has made me fearfully and wonderfully. Those old sins/friends of mine don't get to place where my worthiness comes from. I get complete peace if I will only think about the truth that God gives me when I dust off my Bible.

Yes, I am lonely. Superficially. But I have the best, biggest family that always want to hear me, that always want to let me know how important I am. I have friends who love me, they just do it quietly. It doesn't matter to quantify how much they love me when I can show them overflowing love every time I see them. 

I am Lost, But only because I'm not looking for the light God shines on the right path. If I am not talking to Him how to I expect to be in close relationship with Him?

It will always be important to take a step back from the thoughts that attempt to overthrow what God wants you to know. If I want to get past the weak-minded thoughts that drag me down then it's time for me to pray.

Pray, listen and start walking. I won't notice the doors God gives unless I'm walking for them in His Light.

Maybe this is where I start, maybe it's where you start too.